Avni's First year
Ani kutta,
Mama wanted to jot down a few things as a gift for you as you turn 1 in couple of months.I cant believe my baby is turning 1 so soon.I shall try to keep this a tradition - a letter to you ,for every birthday mentioning the highlights of that year with regards to your development.
I still remember holding you the very first time ,with so much caution,not too tight so that you would feel uncomfortable and not too delicate thinking what if you slip from my hands, especially after all the drugs they gave me during the c-section.You were so warm so soft and so beautiful.It was like holding a small warm cotton ball that smelled like a baby..I love the baby smell..
The very first time you opened your eyes and looked at me I felt this tinge of sorrow within me thinking you are no longer a part of me.I cannot carry you anymore inside my tummy keeping you warm and safe inside.
Everytime you cried, for the first few weeks,my heart used to beat so fast ,for various reasons.If the cry was at night the fear was about spending another sleepless night.If the cry was during day I wondered what you wanted - are you hungry,a wet diaper or are you sick.Sometimes I wished babies were born with speech skills so that they can exactly tell what they want instead of them having to cry which is heart wrenching at times and at times it is annoying.
The first time you smiled in your sleep it touched my heart in a way no one or anything has ever touched before.It was one of those rare moments of my life when I experienced so much happiness,that I felt I was in heaven.The mother child bond amazed me.Everytime you cried ,even if I was in a different room ,milk dripped from my breasts or there was a sudden tightening of muscles (or whatever) in my breasts.This felt so amazing to me.Never knew such love could exist.You were a very hungry baby.You needed to be fed on time and the right amount or else you will scream and bring the whole place down.You were a very violent sucker as well...ouch my sore nipples!
....Continuing the letter,few months after your first B'day...
I have always been known to my family and friends as a person who is in charge of any situation but I surprised myself and others (esp dada) at several occasions involving you when I've acted so clueless and lost. During the first few weeks after your birth you had a slight yellowish tinge on your skin and in your eyes.The doctor said it was common in babies with Asian parents and advised to expose you to sunlight. Baby buwa was with us for few days to help us out and she did a real good job exposing you to sunlight but maybe a little too much that you were severely dehydrated.One evening you started crying and just wouldn’t stop.I remember that day so well.This tiny little thing you were, so fragile and vulnerable cried as if in pain and it tore my heart.I wanted to somehow take the pain away from you but I was so helpless.I cried with you and maybe that was one of the very few times dada has seen me crying.I was a very composed and logical person all my life and then you came Avni and turned me into this mushy weepy mommy.
I love you so much my little girl...I loved making up songs for you...One of your favourites were "Avni is a cutie little pretty lil girl..a sweetie lil girl...a pretty lil girl"...You would move your body and smile when I sang these silly songs.At times I used them to divert your attention when changing your diapers ,or else you wouldn’t stay still.Once you started going to the day care,mama's favourite part of the day was when I picked you up.It was so loving to see your face lit up and your eyes widen when I showed up at the door.I don’t think anyone ever would have been so happy to see my face,than you did then.I loved biting your cheeks...Dada and mama used to fight to hold you soon after you woke up from a nap or sleep..You would be so warm and smelled so good..Dada used to say you felt like fresh baked cookies when you woke up...Mama used to call you cookie for a long time....Around 8-9 months you said your first word ,which was dada...then it changed to dadu...You used this word to address everyone and everything but dada took pride in the fact that you were addressing him...You said "thathoo" for Thank you and "Tatoo" for Bye Bye...
Your first year is not complete without mentioning about your favourite blanky.That blanky has caused enough pains and work for mama and dada.This blanky was a gift from dada's colleague.I loved the blanky when I first saw it and used it to wrap you from day one.Maybe that’s why you got so attached to it.You wouldn’t part with it even for a minute.You dragged it everywhere you went and it had all the dirt possible in this world.I used to wash it every weekend but within few days it would be all dirty again.
First 6 months after your birth ammamma was your primary care taker.She held you all the time,sang lullabies for you and put you to sleep.When mama went back to work after 2 months you stayed home with ammamma.Dada and mama used to rush back home from work every evening to see you and hold you.Oh the first few days after I returned to work I missed you so much and felt so sad.We got your ears pierced when you were 6months old.It was done using a piercing gun.You cried a little.It didnt stay long though.You lost the ear ring and the hole just went away.
Your first trip was to Miami and Key West.It was a lot of fun.The American Airlines flight captain was very impressed by you and how well behaved you were,that he gave a gift to dada asking him to give it to you when you grew up.It is a brooch with AA logo and is no more produced now.He had it for 17 years or so he said (not sure if that number is correct)
Chechiamma,chettacha and ammuchechi were the most excited folks when you were born.They couldn’t wait to hold you and fuss over you.Unni was still in chechiamma's tummy when you were born.Ammu chechi always wanted to help mama change your diaper,watch you and even feed you a bottle.Ammu chechi absolutely adored you.Chechiamma got you, your first pair of ear rings and sandals and sunglasses for your first trip to India.
You started walking between 10-11months.Teething was always difficult for you and you cried a lot at night during those times.You only had 2 or 3 teeth during the first year.Dada and mama has lost so much sleep over your teething.Most people who met you mentioned you are a happy baby.You always smiled at everyone and was friendly.
We traveled all over India and Nepal and still you were a very well behaved baby and never gave us a hard time.Chitta called you "bebo" and was very fond of you.Chitta gave you two nice pairs of ear rings,one of which we used again to pierce your ears in Bangalore.This was a manual piercing and it worked well.Being the first grandchild in mama's family everyone fussed over you so much all the time.In Nepal too dada's family was so thrilled to see you.Indu buwa and Manish chachu were the happiest to see you.They all gifted you bangles in gold and silver.
We celebrated your first birthday in Kerala with mama's grandparents and your great grandparents.They were so happy to see you and hold you.We took the chettas from Sai Nikethan to a resort and all of them had a good time there.You got to cut two cakes for your b'day.One shaped like Mickey Mouse and one shaped like a butterfly.
Mama and Dada loves you to bits....
Hugs and kisses,
Mama
Mama wanted to jot down a few things as a gift for you as you turn 1 in couple of months.I cant believe my baby is turning 1 so soon.I shall try to keep this a tradition - a letter to you ,for every birthday mentioning the highlights of that year with regards to your development.
I still remember holding you the very first time ,with so much caution,not too tight so that you would feel uncomfortable and not too delicate thinking what if you slip from my hands, especially after all the drugs they gave me during the c-section.You were so warm so soft and so beautiful.It was like holding a small warm cotton ball that smelled like a baby..I love the baby smell..
The very first time you opened your eyes and looked at me I felt this tinge of sorrow within me thinking you are no longer a part of me.I cannot carry you anymore inside my tummy keeping you warm and safe inside.
Everytime you cried, for the first few weeks,my heart used to beat so fast ,for various reasons.If the cry was at night the fear was about spending another sleepless night.If the cry was during day I wondered what you wanted - are you hungry,a wet diaper or are you sick.Sometimes I wished babies were born with speech skills so that they can exactly tell what they want instead of them having to cry which is heart wrenching at times and at times it is annoying.
The first time you smiled in your sleep it touched my heart in a way no one or anything has ever touched before.It was one of those rare moments of my life when I experienced so much happiness,that I felt I was in heaven.The mother child bond amazed me.Everytime you cried ,even if I was in a different room ,milk dripped from my breasts or there was a sudden tightening of muscles (or whatever) in my breasts.This felt so amazing to me.Never knew such love could exist.You were a very hungry baby.You needed to be fed on time and the right amount or else you will scream and bring the whole place down.You were a very violent sucker as well...ouch my sore nipples!
....Continuing the letter,few months after your first B'day...
I have always been known to my family and friends as a person who is in charge of any situation but I surprised myself and others (esp dada) at several occasions involving you when I've acted so clueless and lost. During the first few weeks after your birth you had a slight yellowish tinge on your skin and in your eyes.The doctor said it was common in babies with Asian parents and advised to expose you to sunlight. Baby buwa was with us for few days to help us out and she did a real good job exposing you to sunlight but maybe a little too much that you were severely dehydrated.One evening you started crying and just wouldn’t stop.I remember that day so well.This tiny little thing you were, so fragile and vulnerable cried as if in pain and it tore my heart.I wanted to somehow take the pain away from you but I was so helpless.I cried with you and maybe that was one of the very few times dada has seen me crying.I was a very composed and logical person all my life and then you came Avni and turned me into this mushy weepy mommy.
I love you so much my little girl...I loved making up songs for you...One of your favourites were "Avni is a cutie little pretty lil girl..a sweetie lil girl...a pretty lil girl"...You would move your body and smile when I sang these silly songs.At times I used them to divert your attention when changing your diapers ,or else you wouldn’t stay still.Once you started going to the day care,mama's favourite part of the day was when I picked you up.It was so loving to see your face lit up and your eyes widen when I showed up at the door.I don’t think anyone ever would have been so happy to see my face,than you did then.I loved biting your cheeks...Dada and mama used to fight to hold you soon after you woke up from a nap or sleep..You would be so warm and smelled so good..Dada used to say you felt like fresh baked cookies when you woke up...Mama used to call you cookie for a long time....Around 8-9 months you said your first word ,which was dada...then it changed to dadu...You used this word to address everyone and everything but dada took pride in the fact that you were addressing him...You said "thathoo" for Thank you and "Tatoo" for Bye Bye...
Your first year is not complete without mentioning about your favourite blanky.That blanky has caused enough pains and work for mama and dada.This blanky was a gift from dada's colleague.I loved the blanky when I first saw it and used it to wrap you from day one.Maybe that’s why you got so attached to it.You wouldn’t part with it even for a minute.You dragged it everywhere you went and it had all the dirt possible in this world.I used to wash it every weekend but within few days it would be all dirty again.
First 6 months after your birth ammamma was your primary care taker.She held you all the time,sang lullabies for you and put you to sleep.When mama went back to work after 2 months you stayed home with ammamma.Dada and mama used to rush back home from work every evening to see you and hold you.Oh the first few days after I returned to work I missed you so much and felt so sad.We got your ears pierced when you were 6months old.It was done using a piercing gun.You cried a little.It didnt stay long though.You lost the ear ring and the hole just went away.
Your first trip was to Miami and Key West.It was a lot of fun.The American Airlines flight captain was very impressed by you and how well behaved you were,that he gave a gift to dada asking him to give it to you when you grew up.It is a brooch with AA logo and is no more produced now.He had it for 17 years or so he said (not sure if that number is correct)
Chechiamma,chettacha and ammuchechi were the most excited folks when you were born.They couldn’t wait to hold you and fuss over you.Unni was still in chechiamma's tummy when you were born.Ammu chechi always wanted to help mama change your diaper,watch you and even feed you a bottle.Ammu chechi absolutely adored you.Chechiamma got you, your first pair of ear rings and sandals and sunglasses for your first trip to India.
You started walking between 10-11months.Teething was always difficult for you and you cried a lot at night during those times.You only had 2 or 3 teeth during the first year.Dada and mama has lost so much sleep over your teething.Most people who met you mentioned you are a happy baby.You always smiled at everyone and was friendly.
We traveled all over India and Nepal and still you were a very well behaved baby and never gave us a hard time.Chitta called you "bebo" and was very fond of you.Chitta gave you two nice pairs of ear rings,one of which we used again to pierce your ears in Bangalore.This was a manual piercing and it worked well.Being the first grandchild in mama's family everyone fussed over you so much all the time.In Nepal too dada's family was so thrilled to see you.Indu buwa and Manish chachu were the happiest to see you.They all gifted you bangles in gold and silver.
We celebrated your first birthday in Kerala with mama's grandparents and your great grandparents.They were so happy to see you and hold you.We took the chettas from Sai Nikethan to a resort and all of them had a good time there.You got to cut two cakes for your b'day.One shaped like Mickey Mouse and one shaped like a butterfly.
Mama and Dada loves you to bits....
Hugs and kisses,
Mama
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